Here again

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001. Here again. Wake Collection. Yépez.doc Waldylei

I'm here again. Yes To bare the heart and soul without you noticing. To think that is another chapter in the novel, or you do ignore everything that my lyrics reveal. Perhaps to say the same old things. Perhaps to lie as I wanted to do. Of more will say whatever is necessary, or what is required. However, I will tell you everything and I will not say anything at once.

First let me ask you a question, or a couple of them at the same time, have you thought about the reason of my lyrics? Or just me I wondered if you'd ask?. Have not you wondered if I show my own life?.

I do deep questions before you give them adequate answers, perhaps the same as I would like to hear from your mouth. But your mouth never tell. Continually candles for my safety but not see beyond. And I wonder what you care. Look, tonight I'm disposed inside. Not that you've neglected, I just look after my heart was not in the deal. Since candles take care of my appearance and my progress. But do not want to see what is in my chest. You are not asked if I felt it I felt cold or heat. Or if you ever had an injury. Nor know I put your name.

And here I am again, leaning on my window frame. Watching the world go by bus, where I have not wanted to ride today. Why? Why say the same thing yesterday? What am I good? And you believe it.

What is the reason of my lyrics? Perhaps with me among so lonely. Maybe invent worlds that do not exist. As invisible as the smallest atom in the very center of me. As utopian as trying to show me love. Yes, I created the words that I would like to hear both but I do not dare to tell me, so I invented them. I love you! I love you! I miss you! I hope!

Long has been my struggle. And here I am again, lying on my own tears. Saving in the pit of my expectations and throwing dirt on my feeling. Who cares if tonight I'm dying inside. I do not know. Tomorrow my smile back. Take away the ashes of all my letters. I will say that I have done very well and you believe it. Would you believe because you are unable to believe that I can suffer for you. Because they never believe me when I say that I love you. Much less believe that I also cried and I hope you. So you just say what I want to hear. I put on my face expression you want to see, because nothing goes to show you because I am afflicted think it's for school, which is for dancing, which is why my lyrics but imagine that this is what you leave me: simple sadness. And I know it unintentionally, and that's the problem: I do not want, but just not fail to be the final reason my illness, ailment no reason for you, or so you think.

And who do I contact? To my faithful letters. And write and write telling you how much you want, and what answer always is: "What a great text! ?. I do not know who will be worse if you do not say anything or tell you and you do not realize or do not understand me. I do not know what hurts more, if my own lyrics or feel your indifference.

How should I tell you? I need you by my side! See? I already did! I already confessed. However, I say, "Many will be identified! ?. Yeah, maybe. And I blame for that, because I identified least to me. They will realize what I'm trying to tell you except you.

You know what? Tonight I will weep for you. I will because I have you. I'll do it because you care. I will because I need it. Because I've endured so long.

Tomorrow I will show this text. Sure you have the same expression as always. I am not mistaken if I say, "You have gone a long way! ?. And the last is: "Keep it up! ?. I'll turn and go. Arrugaré this sheet in my hands. Feel a new stab in the chest, again wanting to mourn and then I say, "Let it be what it is, let it be where that love can not be forced?.

Why will cost you both understand? Why will cost you both hear me? I have no more nothing to say because everything I've told you already, and yet know nothing.

Although here I am again with the rain-rimmed eyes for you, I can only add that this is the last time. I realized today that my attempts will always be failures, because you do not dare to see me.

No matter how much you suffer for you shout, how I would go with you or anything, just understand that you do not understand. That though the truth is in front of you, you will look at the latest.

Do not know what it means to lose your hope, now I know.

You never know how many times I wanted to tell you so much. That each person saw your face and your star chasing me all night.

That in each of the things I do, there was always a detail for you.

I believed until the last moment that the utopia of a you and me, was achievable.

And that would have given up many things if you were asking me.

What I most want now is leave. But I can not leave because I have never had. Much less I can get away if I was not close.

Tell me, what do you? Or at least tell me, what I do with me? What to do with perceived impotence in my lyrics?

With the words that you write because you have no life, or life is lived not because he has no words. Or this life I can not live because my letters and words will not only be silence.

In the midst of my tears fall tonight. The noises are walking across the street. Behind the roof should be a shining star, while the pillow collects my tears and tell the world that will never believe. Telling myself that and stop screaming. And saying to you that I will not mourn. That was about impossible love you than you think. And you can say about my writing what you want, it does not matter because I will leave to tell you things. I will put my world reality. Throw the book of love that was yours. Pour the memories that make us one morning and say to me: "You see! The sadness will never run. Go! These letters can improve? ... And so then you go.

I face this window again, and perhaps is back here tomorrow, but certainly each letter is no longer the same, because I've forced to change.

The days pass and I will say: Here I am again!

The nights come, and sit back in the window to see nothing.

Hoping to turn a throbbing again the stars went out.

Those that do not shine because my heart is quiet tonight.

Or is dead ... or do not know who, it has been taken.

Just know that no matter what I say, for you are only letters and the letters always forget ... or disappear from life.

29/07/07

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Yepez Waldylei

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